rambling

Even though I've had a pretty decent day, I'm feeling frustrated and agitated right now and I'm not sure why and Johnny's leaving for work so I can't complain to him so I'm just gonna ramble to you all. Enjoy.

I drank like 4 cups of coffee this morning so I've felt jittery all day.

I just ate a gross dinner and it was annoying because for some reason I couldn't get my food to stay on my fork so I could never get good bites and half my food spilled on the floor so then I had to get down on the ground and clean it all up.

I hate TV and the sound of it makes me feel like killing someone.

I have a lot of work to do and I've been working all day and I've gotten hardly anything done and people keep distracting me.

Whenever I go to the bathroom I want to throw up because this one girl in my house keeps getting bloody noses and there's blood splattered all over the wall and bloody toilet paper filling the trash can.

I want to exercise because I feel like bla but I can't find the time and it's too cold to run outside but it makes me feel agitated and claustrophobic to go to the gym.

So far Johnny's tried to leave like 60 times and I've locked the door behind him so nobody could come in and then I come back and sit down and 2 seconds later he's pounding on the door cause he forgot something and then I have to get back up and let him in and then wait for him and then lock the door behind him.

I just went downstairs to get hot chocolate and (1) they didn't have the marshmallows out and (2) the hot chocolate just came out all watery. I can't ask them to fix/refill it because they seem totally suspicious of me lately. It's getting very nerveracking.

Wow.....I'm not going to reread this post because it must make me seem like a whiny little brat.

And now that Johnny's gone I feel lonely.

-Ashley